Wednesday, November 20, 2013

Just a little

Seems like the only thing I'm good at is disappearing. Honestly, I was sinking there for a while. I kept crying and crying and everything hurt so much. But then I went home, just for 10 days, and it inspired me to live again. Being around my dog heals me, he is the only one who has ever helped me with my depression. And talking to my sister and being taken care of by my mother helped. I came back and I am trying to live. I miss less classes, I socialise just a little more often, and I'm trying to become a better friend. It's an effort, but I think it's worth it. 

I have been smoking a lot lately, I am pretty much always either rolling or smoking a joint. Honestly, I think im trying to get my schizophrenia back. Life is such a downgrade without it. 

Also, my mac broke so please pray with me. I foolishly left it on the floor and it rained and the window was open so yeah... Have an appointment at apple on Monday. And seriously, I cannot afford another computer. I am so beyond broke. And there is nothing more exhausting than having no money.